Name: Tyler Grady
Age: 15
This is my boyfriend. I absolutely love him. Why? Because, a. he's hot, b. he's wonderful to me, c. he's real. Tyler isn't afraid to say what's on his mind, but at the same time, he doesn't want to hurt me. I love that he thinks of me, and I'm always thinking about him. He's incredibly honest to a naive point, but it makes him cute. He's fun to be with and I love it when he smiles! But he never does for pictures....but I love him anyway. He tries his hardest to make me happy, even though I tell him I'm happy just being with him. Tyler does so much for me, and I don't ever know how to thank him enough for all he does. He accepts me for who I am and even sometimes what I do and the things I say. I take him for granted sometimes. =P My lover, my best friend, and my boyfriend. =]
I want him back. I need him back so badly. I want to STOP loving him as much as I fucking DO. I want to stop.
Dear Tyler, When things went wrong, you were there for me. When things went bad, you stopped to care for me. When I needed you the most, you remained by my side. You were my shoulder, you were my lover, my jerk, my best friend.
DAMMIT!
I want you back.
But I don't want you back. I want to stop loving you, but I still love you. I hate that! I want to stay by your side forever. You promised me forever.
It's really dark. I have to change some of the colors....
Oh well.
Things have been coming up. My friend was just released from a mental hospital. I really miss him. I hope he's okay. God, give me hope...I need it so badly...there's no one there. I need a friend really badly...*sigh*
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Lord, I'm desperate for you. Come save me soon, my lord, come save me soon...
I don't even know what to do anymore. I know he won't take me back this time. I thought it was the best thing at the time to break up with him. It's killing me right now, and I don't even know what to do. It hurts so much.
What should I do? I still want him back so badly. But I can't. I'd only hurt him more, and I don't want to do that.
It's hurting so much...it hurts like crazy...
I can't stop crying anymore. It doesn't help that I'm curled up under his blanket, and it doesn't help that no matter what, he's always on my mind.
